Today, Lucrecia speaks to us about the need for a mature spiritual circle, leaving perfection behind and embracing willingness, and all about her power cards (you will want to make some, yourself). Thank you, Lucrecia, for being so incredibly vulnerable with us and for sharing God’s amazing work in your life. It filled me with so much hope. I was blessed.
Inspiring biblical passage of the moment:
“But when I am afraid, I will put my trust in you. I praise God for what He has promised. I trust in God, so why should I be afraid? What can mere mortals do to me?” Psalms 56:3-4
This passage is one of what I like to call my “anchor” scriptures. I’m in a pretty complex season of my life right now, and there is so much I don’t understand, and so much that’s been happening that has caused me to fear. This scripture helps me to stay grounded in the promises and faithfulness of God and honestly to maintain my sanity.
Spiritual growth focus at the moment: Trusting in God. I’ve learned that it’s easy to trust God when all is going and looking good in life. True colors show when we enter a rough season, a challenging situation… we get to see where and in who our trust really resides.
Profession: I am an Army veteran turned self-published author. I published my first book in October 2017 “Broken Narratives: Restoration in the Broken Pieces of Our Lives,” and I am working on my second book. I’m also a blogger and a co-contributor to Victorious, Virtuous, & Valued Magazine and Dear Purposeful Woman, both based out of Atlanta, GA. I also am a full-time college student, studying to become a Social Worker.
A one sentence bio of yourself: I am a broken, but beautifully restored woman who God has called to be a wife, mother, friend, mentor, writer, and encourager.
When did you first encounter God and how did you encounter Him? I grew up in church. I knew who God was, but it wasn’t until I entered into my 30’s that I began to understand the difference between having knowledge about Him and being in relationship with Him.
My life as a child was riddled with dysfunction, brokenness, sin, and generational patterns. As an adult, I began using alcohol to numb my brokenness, the pornography addiction I developed as a child had manifested into a full-blown sexual addiction. I was sexually assaulted when I was 18 years old, my first month in Germany. I had several toxic relationships, including the one with my oldest daughter’s father. I got pregnant at 19 years old, three months after being stationed in Germany. Not long after, I married my daughter’s father; we stayed together for almost ten years. Almost everything about the marriage was toxic, and adding two deployments in the mix made things worse.
After I returned from my last deployment in 2010, my life hit rock bottom. My daughter’s father and I got a divorce and all the anger I had on the inside, manifested on the outside. I took it out verbally on my daughter and whomever else I felt like it. It was during a teary confrontation between my then 10-year-old daughter and me that made me decide to admit myself into Adult Behavioral Health (a mental health facility for military personnel). For almost two years, I received therapy and rehabilitation for mental illnesses. It was also during that time; I met my current husband. Without even knowing it until after years of us being together, I realized God used my husband to get my heart. In 2013, the head knowledge I had about God transformed into an intimate relationship with my Lord. I gave Him my brokenness, sins, hurts, shame, everything. I welcomed Him into spaces of my heart that were locked up. From that moment to this day, I desire to grow closer to Him so that His light can reflect in and through my life and to the lifes of other women.
What has helped you grow spiritually in this season? Being brutally honest with myself and owning whatever God shows me that still resides in my heart. I love to write so I journal, a LOT. It’s like when I don’t have the energy to verbalize my thoughts and prayers, I write them out. They become therapy on paper. My husband is also a huge support. I can’t even put into words how much he has helped me make it through this season. I also have a mentor I like to call my “spiritual mom.” I realized a little while ago that God positioned her to be in my life as a stand-in to my biological mom, with whom I don’t have a relationship, God has allowed so much healing and comfort to come from my spiritual mom. She has been and is a key role in my life. I volunteer as a mentor at a women’s pregnancy center here in town and doing that has brought me so much joy. There is something about taking the focus off of you and placing it onto other people that does something to your heart. I get to see God move in the lives and hearts of other women. I get to witness that! Lastly, my friends. I believe in true sisterhood. Life wasn’t meant to be walked out alone, and the women God has placed in my life are like my sisters.
Just read/currently reading (and what has it taught you?): I just started reading Enough: Silencing the Lies That Steal Your Confidence by Sharon Jaynes. I found this book through a Bible plan on Youversion. Oh my goodness (inserts handclaps) that plan was so good, I did it TWICE back to back. Sharon not only teaches how to recognize the lies of Satan but also how to destroy them. From that plan, I created what I like to call “Power Cards.” These cards have written on them the actual lies that I’ve entertained and believed and below that, the Truth- God’s word. On the back, I have a declaration or a note I’ve written to myself. I read those cards frequently out loud. I think it’s one thing to read something, but when we put sound to those words, we serve notice to Satan that he HAS to flee and that we are NO longer in agreement with him and his lies.
“These cards have written on them the actual lies that I’ve entertained and believed and below that, the Truth- God’s word. On the back, I have a declaration or a note I’ve written to myself.”
Top three essentials: If I understand correctly, my top three essentials are my time with God (whether that’s in the morning or at night), coffee (because coffee is bae), and a good dose of Fixer Upper on HGTV (because why not?).
How did God speak to you recently? During Sunday praise and worship service (11 November). That whole morning was off for me. I was feeling anxious and scared because of some thoughts trying to creep up into my mind. When I got to church, I was heavy in spirit. When the praise team started, I felt the Holy Spirit stirring inside me. Then, the words “Walk in freedom” whispered in my heart. I received that word with tears and worshiped all the more.
Hobby: Reading (when I can), drinking coffee with girlfriends, watching Fixer Upper, Chopped, or any food show, and spending time with my family.
Top three practical tips for staying spiritually strong:
Be honest with yourself about your sins and struggles. God already knows, but He looks for us to be willing to be honest and own our truth.
Talk about what we’re wrestling with, whether it’s a sin or fear(s). I think one of the strategies of Satan is to isolate us and trap us in our own minds. If he can get us to keep silent about our struggles, then he’s won.
Have a strong, spiritually mature inner circle. We can’t fight this battle on our own. And sometimes, we just don’t have it in us to fight. It’s on the shoulders of our inner circle we can depend on to stand in the gap for us.
“We can’t fight this battle on our own.”
Favorite person in scripture? Most definitely, Paul. When I get to heaven, once I see and behold the Lamb of God, Jesus Christ, I’m going searching for Paul. I call him my Biblical mentor because of his truth and transparency. He was the real, real for real.
What do you want people to learn about God when they look at you? I want people to understand that God CAN, WILL, and DOES take what is broken and restore it for good use of the Kingdom. I want people (especially women) to understand that God is willing to meet us right in the middle of our mess to transform our hearts. Broken pasts checkered several women’s lives in the Bible, but they are perfect displays and examples that God doesn’t have favorites. And that’s what I want women to see when they look at me, that God doesn’t wait ’til we have it together, can walk perfectly on a tightrope, or have our sins capped in a bag before He meets us, transforms, us and uses us. All He wants is a willing heart and an open door to our hearts. That’s what I want women to see.
“And that’s what I want women to see when they look at me, that God doesn’t wait ’til we have it together, can walk perfectly on a tightrope, or have our sins capped in a bag before He meets us, transforms, us and uses us.”
How do you leave your mark on your community? By being as authentic as I can be and sharing my story. Revelation 12:11 says, “They triumphed over him (Satan) by the blood of the Lamb (Jesus) and by the word of their testimony;” The only Jesus some people will see and encounter is through our personal stories. I want to make sure that people are drawn to God through my story, which essentially is HIS-story (play on words).
“I want to make sure that people are drawn to God through my story, which essentially is HIS-story.”
Favorite holiday? I love everything Christmas. From celebrating the birth of our Savior to all the Christmas classics, I love it!
A dream you have? I have a dream to host women’s small groups all over the world where women gather into safe spaces and destroy the lies of Satan and start to live in the freedom of Christ.
A special tradition you and your family engage in or keep: We make it a priority to eat at our dinner table with NO electronics. We don’t make it every night but most nights of the week, we gather around the table to eat dinner together. We engage in funny stories, life lessons, or random talk but this is something special we’ve done for years and hope to continue with our grandchildren.
Question you will ask when you get to heaven? I never really thought about this before. But I think I’d ask God why? Why did He choose to allow generations to past before He decided to send Jesus back?
Thing you want to raise awareness about: Mental Illness and Christianity. This is a huge, HUGE topic I want to bring awareness to because I see it stigmatized so much among Christians. I also want to raise awareness to the masks and pretense we live in and behind because of shame and guilt.
“I also want to raise awareness to the masks and pretense we live in and behind because of shame and guilt.”
What do you usually do before 9 a.m.? I get up between 4:45-5:00 am. I try to spend some time reading my Bible, journaling, praying, and listening to praise and worship music. Sometimes, I’m interrupted by my 6-year-old daughter or that sleep monster attacks and takes me out. Then, I’m preparing her lunch, getting ready to head out the door for school (college).
What is on your nightstand? Fingernail file, cuticle clippers, EOS chapstick, usually a bottle or cup of water, my meds, a book I’m reading, and sometimes my journal. Oh, and random papers that I probably should throw away.
Define Christianity in a sentence: Christianity is expressed through the hearts and lives of broken, but beautifully restored people who have chosen to live their lives out to lead people to God through Christ Jesus.
For more Lucrecia:
Her book, Broken Narratives.
Until next time, keep witnessing!